Well I'm glad pulling weeds and cleaning cobwebs allowed me to find a label for this strange empty feeling... disheartenment.
I feel disheartened because even though this woman satisfies my high standards she still seems yet so far away... as if she hadn't satisfied any of them!?
I think I'll take Jen and Likalia's advice and have a couple more coffees with her, but if after the next round I don't feel any different, and there's still no attraction, by the third round if there's *still* no difference I'm just going to have to let her know that we'll just be friends.
Hopefully by that time I would've nailed down a reason for why it wont work.
I'm also glad that I'm going to be busy over the next 3 weeks so I guess this break will allow me to freshen up before giving her another try.
(Oh, and BTW, I don't think Joy is coming to my brother's house warming party either... I knew this several days before last night's date so I'm not feeling this way towards Karina in trying to convince you that I'm not playing both sides. I guess it would've been nice to meet her though, but oh well... we move on.)
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